I think I have mentioned before that I have felt stuck for a while.
I began tapping a couple of days ago and have felt energised and much more focused. I bought two books having seen them on a friends facebook status. This one by Silvia Hartmann is the one I am using and this one by Nick Ortner is waiting to be read. Another of my local friends has been tapping for a while now and I think it is safe to say it has changed her life. She has been sharing her journey with me and had told me about Nick Ortner...it seemed that now with the new information about the Positive EFT book it was the time for me to get on-board :)
The last few days have seen a great deal of movement..Lots of ideas have solidified and are being taken forward..I was thinking this morning......well, browsing and thinking......had you seen me it might have seemed like I wasn't doing anything other than searching the internet and checking out facebook :)
I was looking for possible packaging ideas and as I hopped from site to site things really started to *fit*. The perfect products at a good price were there waiting to be found. Ideas of what I wanted the finished product to look like came thick and fast and the image I have in my head of where I want to be in a few years seems much more achievable.
I have spent money on yarn and have very little left in the pot. As I searched this morning I began to wish I hadn't spent so much and had gone ahead with the other ideas I had sooner...
Today, I realised it was a progression and the yarn I purchased was a big part of a picture that is still evolving.
I have had these ideas for many months - one of them has been on the back burner for many years! - why is it only now that they are being refined and I feel able to move them into being?
Well, it came to me today that I wasn't ready. I didn't have all the pieces of the jigsaw. I felt the ideas were fully formed and didn't know that any pieces were missing and could have marched on and blocked out the intuitive voice that whispered to me to wait. The *feeling* was subtle but persistent..it is hard to describe how it felt but it was definitely more of a feeling.....a knowing rather than an actual voice in my head and It just felt right to leave it all on the drawing board ). Maybe things would have worked but they were a very different end product to the ones I have in mind now.
I have no idea if the things I am working on will sell and in some ways that makes me very nervous..But equally I feel strongly that the time is right to move in that direction and to accept that this may just be another part of an even bigger picture I can't see at the moment..
Right now..writing this feels like the right thing to be doing..I have a desk - my dining table :) - full of paperwork and half finished products that I could have been working on..had I overrode the instinctual feelings to leave them for a while I wouldn't have found the things I did online and I wouldn't have had my little light bulb moment :)
Perhaps it seems that we make some bad decisions along the way.
Negative experiences don't mean that our intuition is wrong, it didn't fail us, those experiences hold valuable lessons for us and may not be evident for some time. It is only looking back we can see...
“I invited Intuition to stay in my house when my room-mates went North. I warned her that I am territorial and I keep the herb jars in alphabetical order. Intuition confessed that she has a ‘spotty employment record.’ She was fired from her last job for daydreaming.
When Intuition moved in, she washed all the windows, cleaned out the fireplace, planted fruit trees, and lit purple candles. She doesn't cook much. She eats beautiful foods, artichokes, avocados, persimmons and pomegranates, wild rice with wild mushrooms, chrysanthemum tea. She doesn't have many possessions. Each thing is special. I wish you could see the way she arranged her treasures on the fireplace mantle. She has a splendid collection of cups, bowls, and baskets.
Well, the herbs are still in alphabetical order, and I can’t complain about how the house looks. Since Intuition moved in, my life has been turned inside out.”
― J. Ruth Gendler, The Book of Qualities