I had a longer than anticipated break from the internet..
I have had an unscheduled holiday..For some time my body and mind were shouting at me to rest but I kept on going and they shouted louder and louder til eventually, through the mental chatter of all the must do's and want to do's, I finally heard...
I accepted that I am unable to work at the pace I want to work at and that no matter how excited I am about the ideas I have and how much I want to move the business along it is not worth risking my health.
So, I succumbed to just being and went with the flow of whatever each day came up with. Alan was on holiday so we had two weeks at home where he managed to do plenty of gardening offset by lots of downtime laying on a lounger and reading in the wonderful sunshine.
Milly and I had a trip to visit relatives in Yorkshire planned. It would have been the first time I had driven and we were looking forward to having a couple of days seeing everyone and little things like going on a double decker bus to Harrogate:) After three weeks of almost constant Migraines I was in no position to drive and risk having another whilst down there so sadly we had to cancel..
We spent a lot of time together snuggled up on the sofa watching a box set of Dexter. I loved the series ( funny to say how much you love a series about a serial killer!! ) but enjoyed connecting with her so much more. The conversations we had were wonderful and I love to join in with her passion for film and TV. The benefits of the time spent with her went beyond *just* sitting and watching TV..
I was at a very low ebb when I went to see Rezwanna a couple of weeks ago at Visage therapies in Cockermouth. She has magical powers and always knows exactly what is needed. It was an emotional session for me but I came out feeling so much better than I had for a long time. I cannot recommend her highly enough <3
So back on track now and working on getting the balance right.
It is a trial and error process.
The important lesson (that I thought I had already learnt!) is to listen to my body and to increase my meditation and give myself time, to live in the now and accept what is.
Speaking of which ;)
Rezwana sent me a text today asking if I had heard of Byron Katie and her work. I had heard of her from friends but had never got round to reading her books.
Well, good old you tube came up trumps and I decided to watch one before I got up... three episodes of her and Oprah later and I had a lot to cogitate <3