I allowed myself time to lie in bed without feeling guilty, chores were kept to a minimum and work has had to take a back seat.. I did start a lap throw and have enjoyed creating a bigger project without any pressure. It will eventually be for sale either in the Etsy shop or possibly Number 15 gallery in Cockermouth - if it fits in with what Kay has on offer...
As usual there is a flip side and what might seem a bad thing has actually meant that I have had time to cultivate the dreams I have... I see the whole picture but just don't know how on earth to get there! It involves finding premises, buying stock, creating a peaceful, friendly and crafty area.....Lots of exciting ( but very scary ) ideas of where I would like to be by this time next year....
Those mornings spent snuggled up warm in bed looking out of the window - watching the tops of the trees waving madly in those extraordinary stormy days we have had - gave me time for my mind to wander to travel down a road to what could be..A time for the ideas to be fleshed out and for me to explore and think about what if?
I had a wonderful massage by Rezwana at Visage therapy In Cockermouth this afternoon... Not only does she give the most amazing massage and healing but she also listens and encourages and enables me to access the courage and ability that is within and the belief that I can do this!
After the massage I lay totally relaxed, floating and calm with the heat lamp emitting it's gentle warmth on my heart area.. As my thoughts drifted gently around I felt less of the frazzled and manic feelings of - Oh my god!!! Sooooo many ideas and how on earth do I get them from my thoughts into reality! - instead I felt determined and I decided that action was needed...One step at a time....Tomorrow the first steps will be taken to talk to people about how I can go about making my dreams a reality. I have to make the steps though and I have to believe that I can do it..
I truly believe the people I need will come into my life and at each step of the way I will be supported.
Let's see what happens!